Day 10

    Oh God I don't even wanna talk about today. Had to go to the dentist, I hate the dentist so much, it scares the hell out of me :( stress binged before and after. I wanna estimate it at about 3000 calories, probably more. I do not wanna get on the scale tomorrow but I will, I have to chart my failure. I did it and the consequence will be the number on the scale. Ugh, fuck my life why did I do that. 

Sorry to bitch my friends, have a nice night.

P.S. I've got over 50 page views, thank you guys so much. Let's see if we can make it to 100! :)

Day 9

     119.5 according to my scale this morning. I think it may have been a fluke though and am gunna reweigh tomorrow. Even if it was my goal this week is to stay below 120. I hate that number, 120. Its ugly. 119 is a much better number :)

     I've been finding it harder to concentrate lately :/ probably because of the restricting, i hope i get used to it soon.

Have a good night my friend :)

Day 8

Weigh in 122.5
Calorie count: 425

Gained a pound :/ probably what gave me the motivation to only eat 425 calories today. Haha. My goal for Friday is 121.5. I know I can lose a pound by then :)

Alright, goodbye my friends.

Days 5-7

    Well fuck, I havent done very well these past few days, probably 1300-1700 each day, including today. Endless soup and salad at dennys is my downfall I swear.

     I'll check my weight tomorrow, can't bare to today :( had a good weekend with my sweet baby though :) we got the catan card game and played all night. Haha makes me feel like such a nerd to do things like that but it's just so fun.

    I wish the rain would stop so I could go outside and exercise, I'm just using a calorie defect for losing weight right now, can't do that for too long or I'll look bad at my ultimate goal weight of 99 pounds. Should be fine to do it to my first goal weight of 120 though, maybe to 115.

    Gotta study for my GED now, gotta take it in the up up coming month and gotta pass it, only because I don't have the time or money to retest in any subject.

Goodbye and have a good day whomever is taking the time to read my blog :)

Day 4

    Still 121.5 but I'm not too beat up about it. Im honestly suprised I didnt gain. Haha that'll probably change this weekend anyways because I'll be spending it with my boyfriend. Sweet guy but I with he didn't make me eat so much. Gunna drink nothing but water until I see him later today.

     He tells me about how he wouldnt like it if i became underweight but he seems to love the fact my breasts have gotten smaller. Didn't know he was into that till recently,  but it gives me insentive to lose more and see the way his eyes light up when I take off my shirt. On that note I need to ho shopping for bras. I cant wait to be an A cup.

Goodbye my friends, I'll post again when the weekend is up :)

Thinspo page one

As promised, a page of thinspo :)
None of these images are mine

Day 3

     It may be a very small accomplishment but my thigh gap is back. Its so so so so tiny though. Oh well we all gotta start somewhere. cant wait to have it be more defined. Maybe it'll happen when im down to 115. Oh god i cant wait for 115.

     One thing I've noticed is that water is pretty much a miracle. I've taken up drinking so much of it lately and it keeps me very full. And this morning I noticed how great it's been on my skin. And it makes 'going' regularly alot easier even when I only eat one or 2 actual pieces of food a day. Haha gross but wonderful too :p

     I've decided to make my weight loss goals more specific in nature. So I'll be weighing myself on Monday and setting a goal to reach by Friday. I hope it'll help me to have goals and not just a starve yourself till you get there plan :)

Have a good day my beautifuls, oh and a bit of thinspo as promised. I'll have a page of it out soon.